Sunday, February 27, 2011

-- Am I living?? --

Today, I got busy browsing on internet. I was reading few short stories and poems on one of my friend’s blog. Just peeping into their world makes my brain shift from a hectic schedule of studies. Actually, I have math’s exam tomorrow. Remembering this, I started looking for model papers on few educational sites. Then, the calling bell has rung. It was my father; He has diff. style in ringing the bell. Even I follow the same! That ring makes me conscious, and I close all other windows on desktop except that educational sites. I pretend as if am seriously searching for information. He doesn’t like me to see browse on net for long time. So, I stopped pretending before him and shut down the PC. I was walking into my room and my mom gave a glance at me which says “Go, study now!” and even I have thrown a glancing reply at her which says “Yeah mom yeah! I’m going.”

I usually close my room door whenever I feel like studying. But now, I closed the door for writing something other than studies. When am walking into my room, I asked myself “Am I actually living?? What do I mean by ACTUAL??” Then, I started having few random thoughts.

Since 3 days I’m at home. What did I do? I was studying for exams, trying many ways to get traffic to my blog, watching news on current issues, commenting on TV anchors, listening music, eating my favorite food, dreaming a lot, writing poetry, chatting with friends, observing the surrounding and finally sleeping!

Shall I call this as actual living? If it is, why do I get a question on Living? It is definitely something more than this… What is it?

Is it helping poor in my leisure time? Is that knowing more information from books? Is it spending time for achieving goals? Being happy every time is called living? Taking few hours for other and helping them in their work? What is it, actual living??

Why did I get this question into my brain? Because, I don’t have any work? Or I don’t have any interest in tomorrow’s math’s exam? NO! It is because I want to know something about LIFE! Let me check my knowledge again!

According to me Human being has 3 stages of life. As a child, as a teenager and as an adult.

For a child, what is actual life? Most of the children don’t like to go school and study the uninteresting topics there. They love to play and get pleasure from playing all the day. Is that life to them? They get scolding from parents because of playing or watching Television. Then, they scold their parents in return or innocent kids start crying themselves. But few other children question themselves why parents are scolding me? They start searching for an answer. They may get an answer or may not! But their thinking is different from others. Shall I call it as LIFE? Being different from others. Being thinking various things without hurting themselves by crying or hurting others by their words. Hmm…

For me, when I was a child, I loved learning things by myself! My teachers taught me what they should and I started exploring from that point. My parents guided in their own way and I started learning in my own way!! So, that was my life when am a child.

As a teenager. Whom do u call teens? They are those people who are stuck between thirteen and nineteen. See the word ‘teen’ while pronouncing. Adults actually fear about them. They have a notion that we people wantedly go and select the wrong path. But why do we actually do it? Why do we ruin ourselves? Hmm… I admit that few teenagers do that because of lack of knowledge about the things which they are doing!! It’s not the mistake of people who tried to teach them about life. It’s not the mistake of parents or teachers! Then, what made them to go on wrong paths?? (I actually dunno the answer as I didn’t chose that path. But, I saw people going on that path) So, I can say that, they get pleasure in what they are doing. They constantly think that “I’m enjoying my life!”, “My life! My rules!” etc,. few other quotes which they actually call it as Attitude. I wonder, what they know about their LIFE!?!

And now, for me as I’m a teenager of age 16, I have faced many strange things in my life. I created problems by myself and solved them again!(To know about how extent I could solve a real life problem!!). I betrayed people for my own cause. I re-gained the trust in all the ways I could! And sometimes I failed to do so! I observe many things in my life! My fellow teens say “You actually act beyond your age, buddy!”. I smiled at them. That was my reply :D. I have a habit of knowing about others life’s and then I started using social networking sites! And I’m successful in learning many different things by connecting to this world!! Is this LIFE to me? Huumm… I’m still searching!

Now, coming to adults! The most important stage of LIFE according to me! They think that they have LIMITS in everything they do! Why follow limits when you are going to do something good? They first think about their family and then about themselves and then comes the topic of “Society”! Yeah, I agree that they have a lot to balance in their lives. But do they take pause from all these things? At least for one day? What really LIFE meant for them? I could actually figure out that, they lived their half LIFE!! Did they form any definition for life? Let me know…

Hm… I’m still searching about what life is… Few say that LIFE is about enjoying little things which they come across everyday! LIFE, itself got many definitions! It is different for different people because they see it in their own views!

Here ends my topic! Sorry, for making you to listen my brain’s random thoughts on LIFE. But, its my time to share something which I felt! I actually opened my Maths text book and solving problems. Thanks a ton for reading. Before leaving this site, ask yourself what LIFE is??

And give a comment in your own way…
Let me learn from you… :)


11 Opinions :):

Cherry said...

To know about our life is Impossible thing in our life..

... Madhumathi ... said...

Haha!! But, I want to know.. ;)

Sanjeetha Veni said...

i really loved it...akin to me..:)

... Madhumathi ... said...

Thanku sanjeetha.. :)

SAGARS said...

life ante manam chusindi,chustundi,chudalsindi..kalipina kannu anthe..

The Story Teller said...

Hey Madhu :)
My first comment on your blog,so three cheers :D
Now,back to the post.Of course you are living.You just don't know for what.Life is just one goal following another,there's never a fixed goal.But you know what?So many of us,myself included,go on searching for a meaning behind life,just to reassure ourselves that we're alive for a reason,that we go on searching and searching without finding an answer.Then,when we're too old and life has spun it's circle,we'll come to the realisation that the meaning behind life is not to search for a meaning,but to actually live it and absorb any and every experience we can.Life's just a school,and every day,we learn or understand something new,something different.It took me a long while to come to this conclusion,but I think this is what it is :)
Lovely post,a slice of life indeed :D

Arti said...

Beautifully written... Life is really very complicated, very difficult to figure out the answer to our questions!!!

... Madhumathi ... said... ya half agreed with it :D


@Achyuth -- Beautifully said, thnx for thinking after my post.. :)

And I agree with this comment.. of urs /// Then,when we're too old and life has spun it's circle,we'll come to the realisation that the meaning behind life is not to search for a meaning,but to actually live it and absorb any and every experience we can.///

Thnx for ur comment :)



yeah, i agree.. but v need to try to satisfy our doubts :D :P

Avi said...

Loved it!

... Madhumathi ... said...

Thanku avi :)

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