Sunday Scribblings - Page 5 of 365

Well, well, well…

Its been a long.. I mean very LONG time since I wrote anything on my blog!!

Ah, it feels almost alone and empty! I’m sorry for my readers too. I know that I lost some of the regular readers.. But, I hope I could make it upto them in this post.

I wish you a happy new year, belated ofcourse. To be frank, I wasn’t enthusiastic to welcome this new year.. It doesn’t yet seem like a new year to me. The reason I am not writing much now a days is I don’t feel like writing anything or sharing anything. I was losing the intrest to share something from my personal life. And yeah, nothing was going well in past few months. But, it is getting better and better since few weeks. So, my present status is “I’m trying to be my old self again, which means to be happy”.

I didn’t make any particular resolutions this year and I’m happy to say that I did most of the things I ought to do in 2013. I got good grades in my academics which made my parents damn happy. And, they increased my pocket money as a reward. I’m happy for that! I lost weight!!! That’s a god damn good news to me every time I lose one kilo. Now, I weigh 56 kilos(I used to weigh 62 kilos). I should lose 6 more kilos and maintain it. I also lost 1 inch from my belly! Well, it doesn’t sound much of a thing to lose, but it makes a difference. Atleast, for girls. Many told that I look pretty now. Few said that they loved the chubby chubby personality of mine. For me, I should say that I look happy for losing some weight. In last year, I started studying too much now a days. Not for grades, but for my curiosity. I enrolled for some classes in Mathematics and Physics in coursera.org and edx.org. I recommend to everyone to learn something new from these websites. Its not about only science, but everything. Let it be about Art or music or architecture…They contain courses which are free for students to learn from International Universities. I am proud to say that I completed my Pre-Calculus and Calculus One courses and earned online certificates from University of Irvine and Ohio State University respectively. In 2013, I lost few of my friends due to some reasons but I’m happy to say that I’m doing good without them ‘cause I feel that I need not fight for people who doesn’t want me in their life. I felt stupid when I realized that fact. I felt like I wasted too much of time on them to make our relationship continue. But, everything was in vain. It was for nothing. I also met few great friends who taught me about the value of having a good relationship with people. I learnt a lot about relationships last year. I started spending time with my parents, specially with my mom. We have been to many places last year, spent money on shopping. We had fun eating in hotels and restaurants. I found a friend in my mom after all these years. When I was a kid, I read an article in newspaper and remember a quote from that which says ‘Parents can be friends with their children. But, first they should act like parents before trying to be a friend’. I felt like ‘Damn, someone read my mind!!’. My parents used to take extra care of me when I didn’t need that at all. But, now they don’t and they understood that very well. They give space for me to think and act on my own terms. They respect my decisions. I’m happy for things going well between me and my parents.

Hmm! So, these are few things from my 2013! Its been great and I learnt a lot without any doubt! I’m happy to write down all these in my blog. As a matter of fact, I miss writing about me. I miss penning down my thoughts and call them as poems. Haha. I miss it! I miss the comments from my readers.

So, one resolution which I want to make now is to keep writing and expressing my feelings on my blog more often. I hope you had a great year too, my lovely reader. I wish all happiness and luck in your new ventures!

Six Word Saturday!

Meanwhile, Eager to learn new things!

I always have this thirst to learn new things. It can be any kind of art or hobby or instrumental music or whatever .. which makes me happy and content!

This week, I clicked a photograph!

It was raining and also a sunset at the same time. I loved the atmosphere!

Plenty of information; Starving for knowledge.

Plenty of information; Starving for knowledge.

As it is exams time, I’m surrounded with books all the time. The thing I observed this week is, we have an ample of information, but starving for knowledge. Incessantly, my lecturers teach us only theory part.. and we have to visualize most of the things. Wish, I had practical knowledge, than theory. Then, I would never leave my studies at my desk itself. Rather, I would discuss about the knowledge which I got and share it with everyone.

Dreaming about how the studies should be taught is kinda fun! ;)

Six Word Saturday!

At Home, Wondering, Dreaming, Planning, Living!

All this week, I was staying at home. One of the reason is my high fever which crossed 80 degree Celsius. Now, I'm feeling good. Another reason, I'm feeling void from so many days! So, lost in my random thoughts. Trying to write few lines. Planning for my exam schedule. Studies are just fine! Though, not up to the mark. Wish I could get that interest to study. Also, Living my very moment with the works I love to do. ♥♥

Readers, Stay Awesome! :)

Sunday Scribblings !

Upset with a friend of mine !

She: My life, My wish! Who are you to say?

Me: *Silence*

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What more could I talk when she declared everything with that sentence? I was trying to get her into right path by explaining. But, she just misunderstood! Totally!

Now, I wonder, if we are friends or enemies or just strangers!

It's December !

To,
December.


Your neighbour, November .. was sOo.. good to me! Except on Saturday's and Monday's.. because, you know.. I write exams on that days.. and get depressed for low marks.. but then, CHILL.. 'cause, I have few more weeks!! Other than that, I bunked college for few days. Went to movie. Had parties. Had late night calls and chats with friends. Also, had few dreamy days. Did shopping for my favourite things! Met a special person after 3 long months! 


It was sOo.. good last month! ♥


I hope, even you bring the same happiness.. ^_^


Loads love,
Madhumathi ♥


P.S: Happy December Readers! Thanks for reading this post! :)

- When am happy, I stay quiet! -

*Happy*

For many of us, there is an urge to explain our feelings in some or the other form. If it is me, then, I portray my feelings by writing few lines (which I call as poems :P ), drawing, playing keyboard or listening to music. Now-a-days, I stopped doing ALL this!!

The reason I found is, “ I'm happy! ”

I’m not able to write any happy poem. I’m not able to portray how happy I am through the drawings. I’m only listening to few songs which rarely connect to my mood. I’m just staying quiet and smiling all the time without trying to express how I feel.

But today, I felt like expressing how I often express when am ‘happy’. That is, staying calm and quiet! :)

If I visit the past and see how I expressed my sadness through poems.. I felt “Wow.. Now am better than the past!”

And, my blog is almost empty without my thoughts and feelings! Wish, I could write twice a week! :)

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With few efforts, I could write this poem :D

Do read :)

I'm smiling, without any pain in my heart.

I'm screaming, without any regrets in my life

I'm loving, without any expectations in back.

I'm sharing, without any fear of losing!

I'm laughing, as if sadness is scared of me!

I'm walking, as if ‘I don’t care about who rules this world!’

I'm so glad!, as if nothing is going to destroy my happiness!

Yes! I'm not surviving, I’m just living my life <3

In love with this world, this life, and myself! :)

So many reasons to smile!

Let it go!

Yes! It’s been 2 weeks since I stepped out of my house. I so wonder that how could I be in my room without even watching the sun completely!!

I missed those morning sun rays which touched my skin so gently and made me feel warmth. I missed the beautiful natural tunes sung by birds. I missed the carpet of fallen yellow flowers from the trees..

I enjoyed noticing new faces everyday during my way to college. I loved the smiles. I laugh at those people who run to their respective offices or schools or colleges, because they don’t have enough time! I used to love my lazy walks in the colony where I reside. I notice every new dress coming to the shop which is beside our apartments. Yeah, I loved watching galli-cricket everyday in the evening! A cup of tea by my mom when its raining, *WOW* , that’s the best feeling ever!!

Paanipuri is my favorite evening snack with my college mates! Burger in the restaurant beside my college was so yummy-yummy!! Watching a sunset during my evening walk was so pleasant! It’s a real treat to my eyes!

Clicking random pictures, watching birds with binoculars, lost in random thoughts, smiling to get back to myself, gossiping with mom, fighting for the TV remote with dad, chatting with friends, mid-night calls, poems, drawings, music … what not! Every small thing in my everyday life makes me so happy!!

So, why the hell should I hang on to just 2-3 reasons and cry all the time??

I totally agree that Life is a mixture of ‘thoda sa fun and thoda sa gham’ (Little fun and little woes)..

I bet, even you people have many small things in your life which makes you happy and smile all the time. Don’t worry about that one or two things which make you ruin all the happiness in your life..

I recently, heard a quotation saying, ‘There is a use of worrying a little about the problem which has solution.. but, what is the use if we worry about a problem which just doesn’t have any solution?’

Now, just take a chill-pill. Smile all the way! Have fun. We are humans.. not programmed machines :)

If I was not in my room for two continuous weeks, I wouldn't have known the importance of these lil' things in my life. 

By the way, I got back to my normal self, my simple and happiest life! <3

Think less, Act More

Try to think less, act more!

There was a conversation between my FB’s new friend and me.

He: What are your hobbies?

Me: Playing keyboard, blogging, poetry, pencil drawing, Photography and listening to music. Then, what are your hobbies?

He: Oh, nice :) . I’m not versatile like you. I play guitar, listen to music and PC Games.

Me: Oh yeah, I know that you are addicted to games by looking at your status updates.

He: I'm obsessed with them. Just like music, even games have the ability to stop thinking (too much!).

For a while, I continued chatting about few things which are under the sky. Then, I logged out and was walking into my room. Mom yelled at me to eat the lunch. But, I ignored her voice and closed the door! I was just thinking about “They have the ability to stop thinking(too much!)”, lying on my bed and holding my JOJO(doll) in my hands.

Yeah, you can guess it, I think too much! I day dream alott! Something about everything! Sometimes, I even don’t care about the important works that I have to finish. I still spend much of the time thinking! I don’t know what am going to get by that, except having many pending works!

Hmm… This thought made me to decide something this week, and I implemented it. Its working too! :)

I decided myself to concentrate on my thoughts ( that’s impossible to invigilate every thought but few! ) and try to work on things rather than just dreaming about them! ( I recognized this very lately, though I know it already. But, am happy.. at least I’ve known the truth ). I don’t wanna spend my time thinking and worrying about un-productive thoughts, my past, ugly truths, buried memories. I started to work on my ‘present’ to make it the happiest moment :)

Though, its hard to stop thinking at once, I wish I could reduce time on that.

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I started my week with this blog post and a cup of tea!

I wish you have a great week ahead!

Cheers ^_^

Six Word Saturday

Lazy and Dreaming all the way !

Yeah, All this week.. I was staying at home and absolutely doing nothing!

But, with my mom's compel .. I somehow managed myself to study for few hours :D

The thing which I liked in this week was.. Sleeping for as many hours as I wish, and dreaming whatever I can about my future!

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I hope, everyone had a great weekend! :)

- Innocence -

Innocence,

Is born with a baby's smile.

Is dead when you firmly fake a smile.

~Madhumathi - Lonely Princess

P.S:- This is posted under Haiku heights: Prompt #41 - Innocence

- Idyllic Life -

Out of Solitude

Born are those thoughts

which made my life idyllic !!

P.S:- This post is filed under Haiku heights: Prompt #40 - Born

- Wasted Money -

Well, It’s been a long time since I blogged something random. So, here I am again!

Now-a-days, I’m bit (actually a lot!) lazy, un-interested, frustrated, anxious and bored!(Did I mention everything, ah no! I must have missed some more bad emotions!).

Another reason for not blogging is, “I didn’t get any topic” (I’m yelling this from many days!!!!!)

So, I got one now. Here it is --> “Wasted money” .

In general, we waste our money everyday..(at least a rupee!). Here is the question put by Ms. Radio Jockey(I listen to Radio everyday, and she gave me this idea! Actually, she was asking this question to her listeners. But, I’m blogging it! :D ).

Question: Did you ever waste your money in the worst way?

Me: Thinking… Thinking… Thinking…

“Yes, I wasted money many times, you know what? Actually, a million times! I must have wasted my money in a range of ways.” I told her, though she wont hear me because I didn’t call her. I was just talking with her from my room :D :P

I made a list of them!

1) I still remember my childhood day, I was sent to near by shop by mom to bring a milk packet for our guests. She gave me two 5 rupee coins, and the milk packet costs 7 rupees at that time. I gave him two of my 5 rupee coins before he handed me the milk packet. I took the milk packet after 2 minutes, and gave a return step to my house. But, he stopped me and asked for 2 more rupees. I told, “I gave na?”

He told, “No, you didn’t. Don’t be a liar! Give back that milk packet!” and he snatched it from my hands. Guess what? I was not crying, but angry on him for being so careless towards his customers. I wasted 5 rupees because of his carelessness. I shouldn’t have given that money before he could hand the milk-packet!

2) One day, I was shopping for jeans (I don’t spend much time shopping!) with my mom. I hurriedly selected a dress which was good for me. It was pricing 1000/-.

After going home, I tried that dress. It was OK-OK types. Then, I never wore that dress but only twice! I didn’t know what, but that dress made me un-comfortable whenever I wore that. I pushed it away to some corner in my almirah. My mom was scolding me for not wearing that and nearly yells at me for wasting “1000 Rs.” For that “Un-comfortable dress”!! I again wasted!

3) I also purchase many accessories (which girls tend to do it always!) and I end up using them for only few days! :(

4) I waste money on things which increase ‘calories’ in my body! Ahh!! :(

5) I waste money on purchasing books (related to studies) but never study them! You know, I really don’t touch them but only few times! And those books costs nearly 500/- to700/-

6) I’m very impatient at times! I don’t wait for my daily bus to come, which charges only 6 rupees to reach my college. For that, I waste 48 rupees by going in an Auto!!

Even though, I know few things charge me so much… I tend to do them! I waste more and more and more money daily…!! I really don’t want to waste my father’s salary in such silly ways! But, hope I will reduce these things slowly. Finally, one day… I’ll b the most careful person to spend money :)

So, meanwhile… did you think of how much money you waste everyday?

Just think!

- A Rainy Day! -

My mom was feeding me in the afternoon. Brinjal curry was so tasty.. ;) and it’s the only time I get to talk with my mom. I was telling about my college lecturers and funny incidents that took place on that day! She was listening patiently and laughing at my jokes .. :P (Love You Mom!!) After few mins.. I ended my lunch with curd rice. Mom kissed on my forehead and I smiled :)

I got back to my room, closed the door and opened windows for fresh air. Started searching for a book to read, but a cool gentle wind touched me. My hair was dancing on my face. I smiled again! :). The whether was changing from hot sunny afternoon to cool and refreshing late afternoon! I loved the climate. Took my mobile and went to balcony  to enjoy the cool breeze.. I closed my eyes and was listening to the songs played on Radio.. and lost in all good thoughts! After few mins, a drop from the sky has fallen on my hand. I felt the gentle touch of nature .. and was back to my senses. I observed that it was raining!

“Vidyaaaa… It’s raining! Get the clothes from balcony..!! I have some work to do here.” Mom yelled from kitchen.

“Haan.. ok amma.. But I want a cup of tea!”

“Sure.. baby!”

“Thanks mom!” and I grinned :D

Yeah, I love to have a cup of tea in this chilling evening!

I collected all the clothes and placed them on my bed. Then, again I got my headset and listened to the songs. Mostly romantic and melody songs were played according to the wish of listeners!

Meanwhile, mom got me the cup of tea and I went back to balcony to watch and enjoy the rain. I observed many things…

Children aged less than 10 years were playing “galli” cricket. After 2 overs, even an uncle joined them and started playing. I also heard other few children were shouting a rhyme, “Rain..Rain..Go away! Come again another day!”. That made me nostalgic. Aunties who wore colored sarees were confined to their usual talks in that evening. Students of 7^th – 10^th classes were going to tuitions carrying colored umbrella’s in their hands… and I completed my tea with the last sip tasting like honey… ( Umm… I love that feeling!)

Rain drops are slowly fading away leaving behind the cool breeze…

What a beautiful evening it was! I loved every feeling! Thanks to God :)

By the way, here is the list of things which I love to do while its raining:-

1)      Want to eat pani puri catching a purple colored umbrella and also dressed in purple color “chudidhar”.

2)      Should watch a horror movie alone in my house.. closing all the windows and doors.

3)      Eat an ice-cream which is chocolate flavored.

4)      Should get drenched in the rain in white dress!

5)      Walk in the beach with my partner beside me…

That’s all for now! Rain… made my day :) Wow!

- A day ended with Burger -

While am browsing on net, yesterday in the evening at 3:30 pm.. dad was asking me whether I would like to have an eye-check up or not. As usually, I said NO! ( Arghhh… I hate going out in the evening!). My mom interrupted our conversation and forced me to say “Yes” , because she wants to go out and do shopping! Yeah, I agreed on one condition, i.e. , she should take me to a restaurant(It was almost 2 months that I didn’t visit any restaurant because of my exams). She agreed with a SIGH! We started from our house exactly at 4:15pm. All my thoughts were revolving around the restaurant … “Um.. what should I order ? Chicken burger or Black forest pastry? Chicken leg or Chicken bread roll?

And yeah, we finally reached the hospital and met the doc’. There was no change in my eye-sight. Yay!! I was happy for that. Guess what?! I have an eye-sight of 7.5 and its a myopia :D :P. That’s because of watching TV. In my childhood .. I use to maintain approximately 20 cm distance between me and TV! :O hehe !!

After that.. my mom was finally done with her shopping.. and I was waiting to go to my favorite restaurant named “Woodlands”.  I love the atmosphere there, calm and peace! I was checking the list of items…( It took almost 5-7 minutes to give an order!) umm… and then I ordered a chicken burger. Mom ordered 2 chicken leg pieces. 

 “Why two?”

“One for me and another for you!”

Oh .. my mom was extra sweet ! I yelled “Thank-You MOM!!” with a big smile :D

I don’t know how many calories I consumed that evening .. but the taste was soo.. Yummy!! It was a ‘Tasty Evening’ for me!

My day ended with a burger! I’m lovin’ it! (McDonald’s Tag line :P)

* Small things in my life make me sOo.. happy :) *

Match Fixing Tape_ India and Pak

 

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 Comment about your reaction :) 

Psychology - My passion

It was in 8^th class, where my life took a deep turn. I’m a girl from village shifted to city in 2007. Parents joined me in a corporate school. I, being a shy girl did not mingle with the students there so easily. For me, it became a robotic life.. I was just going .. Listening to teachers and coming back to home! There was no sign of friendship all that year.. Few girls in my class use to mock at me because they know that I don’t point at them even if the mistake is not mine.. They don’t like to see my expressionless face in the very morning. How could they expect me with a fake smile? Why don’t’ they help me in smiling? Whenever I give a wrong answer to a question, whole class laughs at me and if it was a right answer.. there would be an unexpected pin-drop silence!! (No one appreciates!). I accepted.. every situation in my life. I did not blame anyone. But, all those people left an impact in my life. Knowing about their strengths, their flaws, negative and positive side.. became my favorite pass time. Scientifically, it is called as knowing about human psychology!

One day, I’m searching for one my record on my Dad’s table. I came across a certificate which stated that .. my dad did Psychology in Bachelor of Arts. It made me to think about my passion. “Psychology” , the word was buzzing in my head all that day..

Since then I started reading books based on Psychology. I started observing people and reading their minds. Now, am also learning to predict the meaning of dreams. My father helped me in suggesting books and websites about dreams and psychology. Thanks to him :)

After my 10^th class result.. I joined in a junior college. Things went wrong in my life. I took Mathematics, Physics, and Chemistry subjects as my optional. At the end of Intermediate 1^st year, I came to know that even Psychology is a subject which can be taken as optional in Intermediate. I missed that chance. Now am preparing for IIT, which is a total contrast to my passion. But, I’ve one more chance left after Intermediate 2^nd year.. I can be a psychologist by taking a degree in Arts! :)

There ends my write-up on the dream of becoming a psychologist, my passion about reading the minds of people around me! I have faith :) .

P.S:- This article is written for [[ Passion ]] at The Youth world

- Holidays -

“Yay!! Holidays start!” yells a student who came out of his examination hall. It doesn’t matter to him how he wrote his exams, but the holidays after exams gives all the energy to be happy and to enjoy. And so me! ;) I love holidays after exams!!

It seems like after we sow a land with seed, we get a rich harvest !! LOL :P

I remember those holidays after my 6^th grade. My dad took me to all beautiful places in Hyderabad. I loved Salarjung Museum, which was filled with ancient treasure. There was ‘Snow World’, which almost resembles Kashmir! ‘The Golconda Fort’, Whoa! It has many steps to climb and I completed 3 full bottles of water while reaching the top most point of the Fort! I still wonder, how could they built those building without any technology! And then, Birla Museum, my favorite spot! There, they told about the facts of universe, birth of dinosaurs and human beings. Those holidays were very useful!!

Children, in the main go to their villages in holidays or go to classes based on their interests like .. for learning music, dance, swimming etc. My point is that, students should use their holidays for their improvement in few fields and also enjoy at the same time. This makes their holidays useful… :)

So, here comes my catalog which I prepared for making my holidays handy:-

> Going to swimming classes.. [ Just to lose my weight :P ]

> Learning keyboard.. [that was my dream]

> Reading novels.. [I don’t like telugu soaps :P]

> Doing photography [In my village or when I visit other places]

> Preparing for IIT [My goal!]

> Painting, drawing, blogging, chatting… in short I muse on my hobbies when I get time.

> Learning Cooking…[Yeah, this time even if my mother scolds ;)]

There ends my catalog! ;) Hope, my holidays will be of use!

So, how many of you [Students] are going to make your holidays useful?

Join ur hands with me if you are one among them :P

- Childhood days -

Childhood is the 1^st stage in our life’s cycle. We start growing from that very point. That’s the stage where we are true humans with innocent looks and real smiles on our face. Having no knowledge about the real world. But, we learn a lot from that very stage of our life. Those are the days when we are really happy! When we don’t have any grudges or greed in our heart! When we are smiling without any reason! When we don’t have or at least don’t know about the responsibilities. We just learned to enjoy those days.. :)

So, here is a piece from my childhood days which I would like to share them with you!

To my knowledge, I was joined in that school in 2^nd class. I still remember those very first days. That was my first year in life to see such a huge building with many children dressed in white and navy blue uniform. They were talking in English. And later, I came to know that if a student doesn’t talk in English, the teachers will punish them severely! I was so scared at that. But however I learned the language very soon! And the teachers who teach there, are actually from kerala, and they only speak English or Malayalam. I loved to hear their language rather than English. I got used to that atmosphere within no time. I used to speak telugu out side the school campus, but when my foot enters the school gate, I instantly change my language without my senses. I wondered many times that how I could do that!

We had a lady class teacher. She taught science to us. One day, she told me to mug-up by giving one Para and said later she will ask some questions from that Para. So, as to gain impression on me, I started to read and actually mugged up everything from that Para. After few minutes she turned to me and started asking questions. I could not answer any question!!(giving a confused look to her) Because, the questions were not from that Para! As a part of the punishment, she pinched on my left hand leaving a scar of her long nails which were painted with purple Asian paints :X

I was totally angry on her! So, I decided to take revenge on her. In lunch break, my mother came to school for feeding me. I told all the story which happened(adding some spice :P). She was angry and complained that to headmaster. He took action and scolded that lady. To my wonder, she started crying while headmaster was scolding her. I was like saying sorry for making her to cry. From that day, she started talking with me softly and loved me always! Nice of her :). But I could not remember her name because that was a keralite name. Sorry for my short memory :(

I studied in that school till my 6^th class. I loved and enjoyed all those days. I remember my class mates. Sorry, I must say, I would remind about them every now and then. I actually love to cherish all those happy moments in my life. Ayesha, divya, manasa, keerthi, Rahul, Manish, Uday, Madhushudhan, Madiha, Nabeela, Rohini… I remember you guys!! I love you all for leaving foot prints in my life which make me happy reminding about them.

Coming to few important people, whom I seldom think of.

Ayesha – Most cheerful and happy girl I ever saw. We use to have a tight competition during exams time. Whether she or me would come first or second in the class. She is my best friend still :) Few months ago, I contacted her, she stays in a hostel now. I know that she will give a tough competition even there. Thanks to her for making my short life filled with beautiful smiles.

Rahul – The biggest prankster during my school days. We use to fight a lot and a lot!! We enjoy fighting rather than hating it :P We use to fight with whatever we get handy at that very moment. I remembered this fighting with water bottles, text books, scales :P. But, the interesting thing is we use to share lunch with each other and praise the tasty curries done by our mother’s(as if it is done by ourselves :P). I use to feel sad whenever a teacher scolds him. But he…!!! He use to mock at me when a teacher shouts at me. But still… I like him :P. Can say that I had a childhood crush on him. But, now I don’t know where he is? What he is doing now? I always have questions with me about him… that Does he remember me? Will he be thinking of me? Did he remember all those good days in childhood life? Did he forget me?... so on! Hope he catches me if I would ever be giving an interview on a popular channel :P.

I also remember my teachers. Sunnish sir was my English teacher. I had a crush on his smile. He use to have a good impression on me as my writing looks good or way better than other pupils in my class ;) He was my class teacher in 5^th class. Hmm… did he keep me in mind? Yeah, the questions are again the same…!!

Those where my childhood days! I treasured many of them. I always love to ring a bell about those days. It makes my heart feel refresh and happy! Thanks to all my friends and teachers for making those days beautiful in my life. Thanks to God for giving me a past which was beautiful!

Childhood is the most beautiful of all Life's seasons.

-- Am I living?? --

Today, I got busy browsing on internet. I was reading few short stories and poems on one of my friend’s blog. Just peeping into their world makes my brain shift from a hectic schedule of studies. Actually, I have math’s exam tomorrow. Remembering this, I started looking for model papers on few educational sites. Then, the calling bell has rung. It was my father; He has diff. style in ringing the bell. Even I follow the same! That ring makes me conscious, and I close all other windows on desktop except that educational sites. I pretend as if am seriously searching for information. He doesn’t like me to see browse on net for long time. So, I stopped pretending before him and shut down the PC. I was walking into my room and my mom gave a glance at me which says “Go, study now!” and even I have thrown a glancing reply at her which says “Yeah mom yeah! I’m going.”

I usually close my room door whenever I feel like studying. But now, I closed the door for writing something other than studies. When am walking into my room, I asked myself “Am I actually living?? What do I mean by ACTUAL??” Then, I started having few random thoughts.

Since 3 days I’m at home. What did I do? I was studying for exams, trying many ways to get traffic to my blog, watching news on current issues, commenting on TV anchors, listening music, eating my favorite food, dreaming a lot, writing poetry, chatting with friends, observing the surrounding and finally sleeping!

Shall I call this as actual living? If it is, why do I get a question on Living? It is definitely something more than this… What is it?

Is it helping poor in my leisure time? Is that knowing more information from books? Is it spending time for achieving goals? Being happy every time is called living? Taking few hours for other and helping them in their work? What is it, actual living??

Why did I get this question into my brain? Because, I don’t have any work? Or I don’t have any interest in tomorrow’s math’s exam? NO! It is because I want to know something about LIFE! Let me check my knowledge again!

According to me Human being has 3 stages of life. As a child, as a teenager and as an adult.

For a child, what is actual life? Most of the children don’t like to go school and study the uninteresting topics there. They love to play and get pleasure from playing all the day. Is that life to them? They get scolding from parents because of playing or watching Television. Then, they scold their parents in return or innocent kids start crying themselves. But few other children question themselves why parents are scolding me? They start searching for an answer. They may get an answer or may not! But their thinking is different from others. Shall I call it as LIFE? Being different from others. Being thinking various things without hurting themselves by crying or hurting others by their words. Hmm…

For me, when I was a child, I loved learning things by myself! My teachers taught me what they should and I started exploring from that point. My parents guided in their own way and I started learning in my own way!! So, that was my life when am a child.

As a teenager. Whom do u call teens? They are those people who are stuck between thirteen and nineteen. See the word ‘teen’ while pronouncing. Adults actually fear about them. They have a notion that we people wantedly go and select the wrong path. But why do we actually do it? Why do we ruin ourselves? Hmm… I admit that few teenagers do that because of lack of knowledge about the things which they are doing!! It’s not the mistake of people who tried to teach them about life. It’s not the mistake of parents or teachers! Then, what made them to go on wrong paths?? (I actually dunno the answer as I didn’t chose that path. But, I saw people going on that path) So, I can say that, they get pleasure in what they are doing. They constantly think that “I’m enjoying my life!”, “My life! My rules!” etc,. few other quotes which they actually call it as Attitude. I wonder, what they know about their LIFE!?!

And now, for me as I’m a teenager of age 16, I have faced many strange things in my life. I created problems by myself and solved them again!(To know about how extent I could solve a real life problem!!). I betrayed people for my own cause. I re-gained the trust in all the ways I could! And sometimes I failed to do so! I observe many things in my life! My fellow teens say “You actually act beyond your age, buddy!”. I smiled at them. That was my reply :D. I have a habit of knowing about others life’s and then I started using social networking sites! And I’m successful in learning many different things by connecting to this world!! Is this LIFE to me? Huumm… I’m still searching!

Now, coming to adults! The most important stage of LIFE according to me! They think that they have LIMITS in everything they do! Why follow limits when you are going to do something good? They first think about their family and then about themselves and then comes the topic of “Society”! Yeah, I agree that they have a lot to balance in their lives. But do they take pause from all these things? At least for one day? What really LIFE meant for them? I could actually figure out that, they lived their half LIFE!! Did they form any definition for life? Let me know…

Hm… I’m still searching about what life is… Few say that LIFE is about enjoying little things which they come across everyday! LIFE, itself got many definitions! It is different for different people because they see it in their own views!

Here ends my topic! Sorry, for making you to listen my brain’s random thoughts on LIFE. But, its my time to share something which I felt! I actually opened my Maths text book and solving problems. Thanks a ton for reading. Before leaving this site, ask yourself what LIFE is??

And give a comment in your own way…

Let me learn from you… :)

~Madhumathi~